Sanitize

I am the good girl.

The nice girl.

The fallen angel

who hasn’t been caught:

wrought out

found out.

Rinse and Repeat,

my mind is scabby and dry,

as I try and try

to sanitize all the shit

I refuse to own.

Sandra Djak Kovacs

Drink

I fall like a woman.

Held on either side

by a different man,

Dignity be damned.

My secrets need to be

washed clean even if

it means the grave

pursuit of one more bar

and one last drink.

Sandra Djak Kovacs

My heart

My heart cracked,

Not like you see

in the movies or

those sweet tiny broken emojis,

But, like a building gone down.

Blasted.

Imploded.

Finished.

Wounds heal.

This one is still raw

enough to give you salmonella.

Fuck. You.


Sandra Djak Kovacs

Everything's Going To Be Alright

I am a silet secret scar -

Wedged in your backbone.

When you fall I hope you die.

In my arms,

Where the loss, the decay,

The ugliness will cry out as I hold

you close and tell you everything's going to be alright.

Sandra XXOO