Holidays

I've taken a few days from work, more than a few, but it feels as if, like the entire COVID times,

one day is just rolling into the next. I don't get up before 6am, 9am, 11am, 12pm, at which point

I peruse Instagram, Facebook and Apple News. I go down so many rabbit holes. I should just binge

shows, but techically I am reading, which is being productive.

These are my mornings.

My evenings are spent making dinners and watching every possible Christmas movie I can.

Today is Saturday, I'm about to look for my next one!

But the other night I veered course and watched something I probably shouldn't have, something important, definitely, for women and the #metoo movement.

But this documentary hit me hard, and my feelings, already on high alert, were taken on a journey they weren't ready for.

I'm okay as long as I can keep my feelings where they belong, above the water where the sun can reach them.

I don't watch scary movies as a rule, my husband can attest, in our almost twenty years together, I attempted to watch one, and that was in the first six months of our togetherness.

He gets me.

This, however, was not a horror movie, it was real-life pain and real-life damage. Unforgivable in its portrayl of the truth.

Girls taken advantage of and boys held to no account. I cried hard. I'm not sure I slept that night.

We are raising boys. My husband is a good role model. We talk to them about respect on a regular basis.

The grown up me understands that these documentaries are more than important, they are stories that need to be told, I can't even imagine how many voices are silent when it comes to this topic.

These voices all need to be heard if the world is to change and it is changing. Slowly.

Audrie and Daisy is on Netflix.

Today is Jan 2, back to work on Tuesday, I'm looking forward to the routine.

I hope your holidays have had sparks of joy and plenty of rest.

Take care of yourselves, do something nice for you, even it it is as tiny as a short walk to breathe in the fresh air outside. Feed your heart and your soul.


Sandra XXOO