Trust

From the latest Instagram post of the @lionswhisperersa, this man has a bond with the lions, if you don't follow his feed you should at least have a look at it.  His latest post is of a lion licking the back of his head in admiration, yes, licking the back of his head, he says:

"Trusting and developing relationships with animals has always come easier to me than trusting and developing relationships with people.  Animals, yes even wild ones, have no hidden agendas, unlike their fellow human cohabitants.  Which one is more likely to turn on you and therefore which one is more dangerous I ask?"

I had a hard day at work.  I posted it to my socials and I felt vulnerable and probably a bit like a target.  But I got a wonderful and kind response.  However, the work part of it still remains the same, as do I, minus a gallon of tears and a bottle of wine.

I do trust some people, okay, one person.  I trust one person at work.

The rest I tend to worry about on various scales depending upon their stature and their relationship to me. It is an unpaved and gravelly road that I am not adept at navigating but insist upon pursuing.

I am good at my job.

I am just not good at my emotions.

I don't even want to move up, well maybe a little, but it is not some grand goal.

I just want to be be considered a good contributor, a solid employee and someone you can count on.

All of those things mean the world to me and if I catch wind of someone with a "hidden agenda" who is not of this belief, I want to tear them apart like the lion does his prey.  That is my legacy and that is my name.

I trust in myself.  I protect myself.  Some days it's just a little harder than others.  Even the lions don't catch their prey 100% of the time.

Sandra XXOO